I mentioned before in a previous blog entry that I had seen all manner of specialists over recent years “as something was up”and had a different diagnosis from each one! More recently as I completed various Psychology studies, I began to realise there was a possibility I didn’t have anything wrong other than being a bit of a perfectionist which slides somewhat into OCPD. It’s very important to say this is not OCD. Like any form of MHealth matters, there can be an overlap, but I don’t have Obsessive Compulsive Disorder, I now know I have Obsessive Compulsive Personality Disorder. It took a long time to get here and, of course, pls don’t judge me. Steve Jobs apparently had this!!
So what is it?
Its also known as Anankastic Personality Disorder. It’s a matter of symmetry, perfectionism , excessive attention to detail, control mentally and interpersonally, excessive conscientiousness, refusal to delegate sometimes, damn hard work.
The very interesting thing is 2-8 percent of us have it and that’s anywhere from 1 in 12 to 1 in 50. Rather reassuring too.
Its actually rather one of the better disorders to have without sounding crass. It’s certainly kept me very intuitive and driven and has me working towards a third degree
Goimg back to the OCD issue. OCD often interferes with someone’s life. OCPD is more a strive towards high targets or in some case, caution by way of behaviour.
There is an interesting link between OCPD and obsessive hoarding which is far more common than you think, I personally would have no issue with hoarding.
There can be a common link between OCPD and Eating Disorders. There is a lot of literature on this for another day. I don’t have an eating disorder. That said I do like a good medium to well done steak!
Going further. There is a link between OCPD and lower mood, possible predisposition to co-morbidity with the Depression. Again I would be an optimist by nature, in good form, “glass half full even if there’s only a drop”!! so I don’t have an issue here
There is a link between OCPD and difficulty in relationships when say the other partner may have a very messy existence, being very casual, be very different in attitude and perception. I can see a little of this in me, it can go as far as violence. Needless to say, I have never nor will I ever raise my hand in a relationship, gosh. Interpersonal relationship skills for friendship have to be worked on and you do this continuously. One had to be mindful of overly long non verbal communication.
There is an aspect of OCPD which is all in relation to perfectionism and preoccupation and I certainly had that. Thankfully more so on the last point,it has helped in academia, tough jobs and assignments and examinations and now a new life that is going very well with a busy diary!
OCPD is known as ego-syntonic and that’s all in respect of behaviours and values. I would hold certain behaviours and values strongly and have a high moral code.
There is an interesting link with Aspergers and as a child I was assessed vigorously got this and there was (it seems) a misunderstanding that I had HFA – High Functioning Aspergers as I had an exceptional ability with Mathematics and was struggling a little with manual dexterity. The latter resolved whereas the former didn’t!!
What’s the cause? Well that’s a tricky one. As with Psychiatry matters, we have this whole discussion of bio or environmental cause and as this is a fairly brief post, I’ll say I lean towards the latter, a strict upbringing and environment can push you down the OCPD road.
I have made some good progress as without sounding arrogant, I clocked this before the professionals.
Solutions- Well it’s not a case for a ” pill for every ill” There isn’t medication and that’s a positive. General self help and psychotherapy are recommended. As I am so much in the Mental Health field, recently a speaker now (!) and an advocate, I get a chance to have a coffee with friends who are psychotherapists, so I am learning alongside a good coffee and conversation. I would see no stigma with Psychotherapy though.
Do you know what…,, OCPD is not the worst in the world. It does often take multiple years to be diagnosed, but all the best to anyone who has this too, focus on your core strengths and work if necessary through psychotherapy if you need it
I hope by putting myself out here in open, I encourage others to do so too.
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